1. |
Harmonica Lewinsky
03:47
|
|||
Why does autumn have to have a name like fall
‘cause that’s the one thing that I’ll never do at all
Let me take you to the cemetery down the street
We can make up stories based on names of people we can never meet
I wish I knew how to love anyone as much as i love being asleep
I wanna make you feel the closest you’ll ever feel to six feet deep
And lately I’ve been having problems telling the difference between
Lives I actually knew and ones that I’ve seen on TV
|
||||
2. |
||||
I want everyone to go away
But at the same time
I want someone new to come around
and give me something to be sad about
I’ve been writing the book for the past 3 years of my life
About some people who don’t care if I live or die
And I honestly don’t know
What upsets me so much
About me and all my old friends losing touch
And the last thing that I wanna do
Is watch you, in platform shoes
Worry about what you just might lose
And you laugh ‘cause he thinks what exists just below your pelvis
Is the only thing that’ll help this
Night end faster
And I honestly don’t know
If I hate all those people that I do
Just because they’re doing all the things that I want to
|
||||
3. |
No
02:25
|
|||
You were 16 when you decided that this just wasn’t for me
I started painting my nails black
The same color you started dying your lungs
I let my hair grow down to my back
Strands through my skin like embers
Burning through your tongue
And that’s why words wind their way out of my mouth
The same way your fingers spit them out
I was 18 when I learned what it means to be
The definition of the jealous type
Happier faces occupy my mind
They’re all happier than mine
|
||||
4. |
Autumn Air (Bleed on Me)
03:53
|
|||
I’m not paying attention when have I ever before?
I suppose you weren’t either when you slammed the brake to the floor
Of your car
On a rainy October Thursday
You said we had to do this your way
Before we’d drown in each other’s bodies
As we entered the hotel lobby
You went out to the street
And started puncturing your lungs with a penknife
At first I could not believe
But you said that this had always felt right
As you bled out between the pavement and the sidewalk
I couldn’t push words from my throat, I couldn’t talk
Just like every nightmare where I forget how to speak
as your eyelids began to leak
If you have to bleed, bleed on me
|
||||
5. |
Yankee Mandog
03:00
|
|||
At night I can't sleep when I am crowding all my dreams with these ill-conceived fantasies of you
I fell in love with the pictures you put up on the wall
Here I am wondering just when you would fall
Like I do every night when I lay in bed
I'm worried you'll figure out what runs through my head
Whoa ooh oh oh
The ghosts from your apartment made a visit to my house and I
Wish I could leave but I'm too scared to let them out
|
||||
6. |
Holiday Hotel
05:08
|
|||
I sent you a soliloquy from the inside of the church bathroom
While the rest of my family is outside wondering who I'm talking to
I told you that when it comes to feeling anything for anyone I am cursed
And what you told me should've reassured me but it made me feel much worse
You said I'm far from the first person that this has happened to
Then you name some other people who've accomplished things I'll never do
It's so bafflingly easy to make me feel special, and I guess that's the root of it all
While many men live in search of fluttering heartbeats, mine causes far more problems than it solves
And this is the moment when I realize
I'm more scared of watching people grow up than I am of watching them die
It's much easier to preserve a memory and just let them fade away
Than it is to let something good never be the same
Even if it's changing into something else good
I'll make the same mistakes that I said I never would
Now we're in Josh's basement and I never want this to end
It's just me and my friends and our thoughts down on canvas and paper and tape and skin
And every awful year that's passed has never ended with quite as much hope as this one
I'll just sit back and relax and wait for myself to come undone
And this is the moment when I start to think
That what I want and what I need are definitely not different things
If I can keep my mouth shut I'll remain more comfortable than ever
And maybe I will finally have a basis for these endeavors
And I won't care what she is or is not telling me
And I will succeed at them, with or without jealousy
|
Carlos Danger New Haven, Connecticut
Emo pop from New Haven, CT.
Streaming and Download help
Carlos Danger recommends:
If you like Carlos Danger, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp